A Neurodivergent Life

Words do not stay long in my brain. My brain must deem them irrelevant to my life, which can be very interesting when I need them. When they show up they are magnificent - I could listen to them all day (as my brain narrates the thoughts). And then comes the paper and pencil or the keyboard, the narration poetically describing the images my brain displays for ethereal and earthbound translation, and somehow those signals don't reach my hands (or lips, hahaha).

I also experience my brain catching me before I speak saying, "Do these words matter? Try simplifying them. simplify them more, what is the root of the thought? Nothing - that is what I thought. So, there is nothing to say."

And that is that.

Nothing.

I have heard frequencies or transmissions of sorts. As if radio waves just pop out of thin air then vanish just as quickly . I have also heard spoken words such as OK in a man’s voice and heard 2 females speaking on repeat in a foreign language. Could these be messages from beyond or downloads? What is the reasoning?!? Thank You!

https://youtu.be/BurHU4wdBlo